it gets harder every day. harder to get out of bed. harder to stay awake. harder to lie, "i'm okay." harder to force a smile. harder to hold back the tears. harder to not completely break down. and harder to fall asleep at night knowing i have to do it all over again the next day.
i thought it was supposed to get easier.
people have told me, "i'm here if you need to talk." and i appreciate that. i really do. but honestly, i don't know what to say. i feel so shitty. my heart hurts. i'm exhausted. i can't focus. i have anxiety about everything.
and all i really want is for this to just be some horrible dream that i can wake up from.
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i know it's a really hard time for you now.
i just want you to know that i'm here for you [as i've said before]. even though you might not know what to say, or i might not know how to make you feel better, it might just be good to talk. talk about anything, related or unrelated to your situation.
i think just getting stuff out and getting any little bit of feedback, whether it's helpful or not, is important. you never know, you might feel 10 times better afterwards.
i just want you to know that there are other outlets for letting your feelings out. dont feel like you cant call me just to talk or get something off your chest. that's what friends are for. call/text me whenever you want. and i mean it, whenever. whether its 10 am, 3 pm, 2am.. whenever. if i don't answer, i'll call you back. even if you think it's not important. if you want to talk about it, then we will :]
just know that i'm here. whenever. as if i haven't said it enough, haha.
loveee youuuuu.
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