everything about the beginning of this year is wearing on me so badly. first it was sara getting fired and all the changes that came with that at work. then it was hearing about krystel's death. all the stress and sadness, respectively, from those things were enough to make me want to give up on anything and everything and just sleep through the rest of 2008. and just when i'm starting to feel better, max tells me he's having health problems.
god, when i read that, i almost started bawling. i automatically started thinking the worst 'what if' scenarios. and i'm not trying to make this all about me. obviously it's hard on him. it's worse for him to be going through it than for me to read the words he types on a screen. but it just scares me.
as much as this isn't about me, i feel like i just can't catch a break. how fucking terrible of me is that?
"nothing great is ever easy."
so far the beginning of this year has been just about unbearable.
there better be some kind of light at the end of the tunnel.
it better end up being fucking amazing.
i don't want all of this to be for nothing.
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