another wasted day.

i've been terribly unproductive.

i keep thinking about how i want to write and never do it. i'm currently reading two books, but they both just end up sitting there collecting dust most of the time. i could've cleaned my room, but i didn't. i could've gone for a walk or something but no. i always seem to choose to just sit around and waste my time.

i need to get out of this funk i've been in lately. because all i'm doing is wasting my life away.

banking 101.

if you're my friend livejournal, you've either read this already, or you will the next time you visit my livejournal. just a head's up.

let me just give everyone a few tips. it's not the bank's fault if you overdraw your account. it is not a teller's job or a manager's job to monitor your account. that's up to you. so don't come in, all pissed off, demanding all fees be reversed and threatening to close all your accounts. take a little responsibility. write everything down. save receipts if you don't have your checkbook with you. if don't do online banking, actually balance your checkbook. if multiple items are clearing on the same day, most banks pay the items in order of largest to smallest, as the large items will tend to be a house payment, or a loan payment of some sort. yes, you will probably be charged for each item that is paid once you're overdrawn. some banks will even charge a fee for each day you are overdrawn. please keep in mind that banks are not nonprofit, and they are, in fact, businesses. the tellers are not volunteers which means they have to be paid somehow.

now, i understand that everyone makes mistakes, banks included. so if that's the case, and it really does happen to be the bank's fault that your account is overdrawn, then call customer service or a branch or even go into a branch and explain the situation as calmly as possible and politely ask if the fees can be reversed.

also, don't try to sneak shit through the atm. credit card checks will probably have holds placed on them because they can come back for up to six months. and banks are not required to call the customer and inform them. they may be required to notify the customer by mail. so you may not know for a couple days. so pay attention to your account. and if any check is payable to someone who is not on the account you are depositing it into, don't put it in the atm, even if it's signed over to the owner of the account.

honestly, i could go on. but i'll just leave it here for now.

regroup.

sometimes the biggest hearts are found in the smallest people.

i've been feeling a little lost (for lack of a better term) lately. between stress at work and stress at home, a lack of ever going anywhere outside of either of those places and feeling like i'm drifting away from everyone, i wasn't really feeling like myself. i couldn't even really remember what "myself" felt like.

this past weekend, i went up to nevada city and got away from the stress of life for a couple days. at first, i felt like i was in that awkward stage between being a kid and being an adult; the youngest adult being thirteen years older than me and the oldest kid being seven years younger than me.

then a little girl showed me that it's not about how young or old you are. i can't say what the defining moment was exactly, but somewhere between the shopping and her insistance on me going swimming with her, it just clicked. when i said to her on saturday, "good things come in small packages, like you," i didn't know just how right i was.

yesterday, an eight year old girl became my hero.

Invisble Monsters.

"Don't you see? Because we're so trained to do life the right way. To not make mistakes. I figure, the bigger the mistake looks, the better chance I'll have to break out and live a real life."

i think part of why i love this book so much is that it really makes you think. it makes you see things from a different point of view. and that's something i'm always looking for. a new perspective.

life is all about experiences. and if you don't mess up every once in awhile, how can you ever learn anything? perhaps a huge mistake is something everyone should look into.

maybe what we all need is the opposite of a miracle.

counterproductivity vs productivity.

my wireless stopped working. i don't know why. chris tried to fix it, but to no avail. tony will be here sunday to look at it and see what he might be able to do. until it is fixed, i probably won't be around the internet very much because i have to plug it in to get online and i'm not really down with that. so i suppose that means finding another way to get ahold of me, should anyone want to communicate.

this is good though. i need to find better ways to occupy my time.

busy busy bee.

i only work three days this week. pretty stoked about that. beyond that, my weekends are looking pretty booked for the next month and a half.

july 16: acoustic matches show?
july 17-20: reno. amy's wedding on the 19th.
july 26: work; cute is what we aim for show?
july 27: baby shower luau.
august 1: twice til tuesday show.
august 2: work; two left feet show.
august 8-10: nevada city?
august 15: twice til tuesday show.
august 16: warped tour marysville.
august 23: work.
august 30-september 1: southern california?

i'm okay with being busy. it's better than being idle.

kill.

i'm so over today. it's been one annoyance after another. could something else please turn up missing or irritate me a little more. please could people keep giving me attitude. please. obviously i like it. obviously i appreciate it.

i would shoot myself in the foot just to go home, if i had a gun.


reno in less than a week. i can't fucking wait to get the hell out of here for a few days.