lost cause vs. still swinging.

since last i posted about my recent lack of productivity, my laptop appears to have decided once and for all that it doesn't believe it has a network card, even though it does. the cheap solution to this would be to get a usb adapter, but after reading people's reviews on those, they don't work well. and i don't want to waste $30 on something that's going to die in a week or a month or who knows when.

it's a blessing, in a way, because i don't think i can really afford the $80 it costs to get a new card to put in my computer. even if i could, the part is currently not in stock in hp's store so i don't even know when i would get it.

we currently have one working desktop computer (mine) and one functioning computer that spazzes often (dad's). however, there's almost always someone on my computer so i rarely get the chance to use it. which means that i'm forced to find other things to do with my spare time.

so far, i haven't been doing a very good job at that, but it's partly because i was half dead (low iron) for most of last week. and now that i'm starting to feel more alive, i think my allergies are just about ready to knock me on my ass. it's not going to be fun.

but once i'm past that, i'll have more time for reading and maybe some writing, if i feel inspired. the weather is finally cooling down some, so maybe i'll go on some evening walks and possibly buy some roller blades and get active.

i think it's time to remember what life was like before the internet.

another wasted day.

i've been terribly unproductive.

i keep thinking about how i want to write and never do it. i'm currently reading two books, but they both just end up sitting there collecting dust most of the time. i could've cleaned my room, but i didn't. i could've gone for a walk or something but no. i always seem to choose to just sit around and waste my time.

i need to get out of this funk i've been in lately. because all i'm doing is wasting my life away.