update.

my sunburn is almost gone. just a few more days of peeling and i'll be back to normal. well, as normal as i get.
i work monday, tuesday wednesday and saturday this week. kind of sucks but that's life. next week i work monday through saturday. insane and not really in a good way.
reno in eighteen days. i have no idea how i'm going to be able to afford it.
i'm bummed that certain things i wanted to do are being put on hold. i hate feeling like i let people down.

i'm just waiting for something exciting to happen.

question.

does anyone read this? i'm pretty sure i allow anonymous comments, so let me know.
i'm not looking for validation or anything. i just figure if no one's reading it, there's not much point in keeping it.

scorecard.

death count: 0.
close calls: 2.
break down-
      betsey: 1.
      random dude with dog: 1.

since i've been driving, i have discovered a whole new breed of stupid. i don't know how to explain it, but honestly, who tries to jaywalk across a four lane street during afternoon traffic when there's a crosswalk fifteen yards away? don't get me wrong, i know i'm supposed to pay attention, but i'm also supposed to look over my shoulder before i change lanes. it's just a lack of commone sense.

my close call was totally my fault. i take most of the responsibility and put some of the blame on the bay bridge only having three cash tolls open, all on one side of the bridge.

you didn't know... oh didn't you know?

i've got it figured out.

it's about the shifting of information.
everything else is simply a formality.

the more information you have, the more powerful you are.

we lose our grip.

there's so much i want to say but i don't know where to start.
and most of it probably shouldn't be put where anyone can see it.

quite frankly, i'm just tired of everything.