sigh.

i'm kind of disappointed with today but i don't feel like i have any right to be.

your subtleties, they strangle me.

a falling star, least i fall alone
i can't explain what you can't explain
you're finding things that you didn't know
i look at you with such disdain

the walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving
maybe it's best you leave me alone
a weight is lifted on this evening
i give the final blow

when darkness turns to light
it ends tonight, it ends tonight
just a litle insight won't make this right
it's too late to fight
it ends tonight, it ends tonight

now i'm on my own side
it's better than being on your side

you're gonna burn in hell.

fucking liar.

it's always something.

it's late/early. this used to be completely normal for me. now it feels so foreign.

i've been thinking about how things used to be. certain people. it so weird how things can change so much over even just the course of a year. some friendships will never be the same. decisions were made and actions will always speak louder than words. it's hard to accept though. i keep thinking that maybe something will change for the better, but if i'm the only one trying then it makes no difference.

i thought to myself earlier, 'i give up' never sounded so much like a beginning. but this is me, and i've never been terribly good at giving up and letting go.

i always want to fix everything, but i'm no hero.